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Nazgulqueen's avatar

The song is lovely and well crafted and is a reflection of how brilliant you are as writer and a musician! I am sorry this is one of the few times I comment on things. The essay was so beautiful too. It's a gift to linger in bed on a rainy day, with your thoughts or just the sound of the drops hitting the window, the gray skies providing respite from the tropical heat. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and memories and I am going to look up the thoughts you mentioned.

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Niki Colet's avatar

that's high praise coming from you, tita karen! 🥺 thank you so, so much -- i'm really happy you enjoyed both the song and the essay. and yes, it's heaven, sleeping in on rainy days--when you don't have anything huge to worry about or accomplish and can just *be* :) hygge vibes!

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Clara Cayosa's avatar

I wish young Niki and I were in the same school. I could’ve been her friend to pass notes with.

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Niki Colet's avatar

i would have thought little clara was the coolest girl in class <3

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Dennis Betito Jr's avatar

When you have ADD as a kid, car rides are an overwhelming amount of stimuli that oddly amounts to a sense of calm. Thanks for briefly taking us back to that.

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Niki Colet's avatar

i don't know if it's a kid thing or an ADHD thing or both, but cars always felt like the best places for daydreaming!

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Fatema Abizar's avatar

Niki ❤️ I felt this so deeply. It is magical to me that you can say with words so beautifully something that we both shared, completely unaware that the other felt the same. Even though it feels like a short time in retrospect, I remember it feeling like it dragged on forever when it was unraveling. My memories of school in Manila are not very pleasant, but talking to you, reading this, feels healing. I feel seen. It is so exciting where we both are in our lives now. ❤️

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Niki Colet's avatar

fatema!! if only i knew. those young years were filled with so much unmoored loneliness, but i'm grateful that we met through it all. i do choose to believe that everything happens for a reason (or at least that the things that happen to us, bad and good, shape us into people we can be proud of becoming) -- and ultimately i'm glad that at those rocky moments, our paths intersected. i would risk detention to pass you a note any day. ❤️

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